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ok i realised that my previous post was sad...but i'm seriously ok..just at tat pt in time bah..n i'm realli thankful to those tat asked mi out..*touched*..n like wat some1 said..it was probably difficult to get to the last stage...haha wat am i tinking lor..stupid mi...aniwae i tis is going to be a sad n confused post again! (in case u all tink it's a cheery one..haha)..it is going to b confused becoz i seriously haf no idea how to state wat i tink in words...

had been in a very bad mood tis few weeks(yesh it's weeks..even though i can appear happie..i am at times la)..prob due to all the problems surfacing...n i seriously dunno wat to do wif them...oh n mainly are friendship stuff(i dun realli care abt luv stuff la..coz nothin to tink abt wat...hai)..

friends..such a chim topic..i dun even noe how to approach it...i tink gif mi essay i will fail lor..i tink it's amazing how strangers can end up as friends..probably fated ba..

i noe different pple haf different views on how close friends are defined..but i tink mine changes like crazi..probably due to the fickle minded n indecisive me, i can feel close to one n not close to one now n then...so pple around mi realli haf to tolerate all my nonsense..like how i can suddenly feel that i am not close to pple n just hide back into my shell...只会让他们更往硬梆梆的壳子里缩。冷战对巨蟹座的人来说，是为了去调适及缓和心情，不见得一定是在逃避问题..tis is so true lor...n i constantly need pple to hong mi out of my shell...which i tink is irritating...but i realli cannot help it...many thinks i am insensitive to stuff...but tis not true lor...i am onli sensitive to stuff n pple tat i care abt(yanli u agree rite!)..巨蟹座是一个很喜欢胡思乱想的人，他们的观察十分敏锐，别人一举手一投足，甚至一个不经意的表情，都尽收在他们的眼里，而且巨蟹座有一套自己的解读方法，总是喜欢以自己的角度来解释一切..n so i realli can feel when some1 is upset or wat..n likewise when pple does certain things i will feel uncomfortable n tink that i am not shou wif them(applies to pple i care abt onli..haha)

there are realli some pple that i dunno is close or not close...can just go ask them a not huh? then i will noe we are not close or close..i need pple to spell it out to me i tink...i am so confused lor...wat's the pt of a clique if u r not realli shou or close to the person...wah up to tis pt i realli feel like talking to them..n see wat they feel abt tis..but they realli will qn mark mi lor..coz they are not those kind that likes to do tis kind of stuff...actually i noe who is close to hu n everythin but i dunno ley...just wan to talk abt things...

i tink i am just a selfish idiot la...when i need to talk or wat i hope that every1 will just drop their stuff n entertain mi...but every1 is selfish rite?..not onli mi rite?..n similarly i wan friends tat will come n tell mi stuff oso...dun wanna everythin oso dunno...oh n in case u pple dunno..i realli hate these few phases..'huh u dunno meh?','eh dun wan to tell u', 'y u wanna noe?'..i tink i tend to get realli pissed off when i hear those words...n esp in a clique when it's ultra easy to get left out...

i dunno wat i'm saying le...urgh confused...r u pple too?..haha..running late in meeting prof...die...

posted by little @ 12:13 PM